Let down

I would quite like to take a temporary withdrawal from my course. 

There are several reasons. 

1) Everyone keeps telling me that my masters will not produce useful research and I get why they think that; I am only a masters student. However, my research for my first project was actually good. No one knew my research was good because no one asked. They just assumed that it would be bad. However, my supervisor and I will be writing it up to publish and if we expand on it we can collect really good research. Not only that, but I also had good ideas. The project was driven very much by me. I suggested to my supervisor different hypotheses. If I stay longer, I can collect a good body of research and get published. I can really build this up into a PhD. Doing online research is helpful - but it could it would not make me stand out enough. 

2) There is so much that I want out of University career-wise. I had a great research assistant job with the Centre for Educational, Development and Appraisal research. It is a big Department at Warwick that does research with people with learning disabilities. I had a really good research assistant job lined up with them. On top of that, I could continue my associate tutor role, teaching seminars for maybe 2nd-year undergraduates as well and doing more teaching? This can really help me stand out. I wanted to apply for associate tutor jobs at the Arden University, Open University, and other universities. I want to get a teaching qualification for psychology - if it is possible - and if I get more experience, these universities may help me to do that? 

Additionally, I am also considering working in Higher Education. I want to be a student recruitment officer at University. I have experience in Higher Education, but the more experience that I get helps. Especially as a lot of the people who apply for such jobs are changing their careers. I can do both simultaneously and build up my experience in the areas that I am interested in. 

3) I have not got a job lined up for when I graduate. That scares me. I would be more content with several part-time jobs like this year, as opposed to a full-time job. Especially as I am figuring out what I want to do. 

However, there a couple reasons that make me reluctant 

1) I hate the psychology department at Warwick. The feel is horrible. I am a BAME student and so I feel like I stand out. I feel like I am in the midst of tension because of my job as a Student Experience Assistant. I feel a bit awkward around a certain someone. I just feel so exposed to the psychology department and I do not want to be their any longer than I have to be. 

2) I am more at risk. I will be financially independent of student finance. A proper adult. I will actually need to work. I am okay to work but the instability - wow...