Still me

I was a shy awkward teenager.

When I started University, I was a little girl in a grown-ups world.

I was a naive kid. I just wanted people to like me. I wanted to avoid confrontation. I just wanted to blend into the background and live an easy life.

Ha.

I have lived so much since then.

I have achieved so much; it is mad.

I went clubbing once.

I told James and Arif where to stick themselves.

I lost so much weight and then gained it all back.

I confronted the issues with my mental health and was honest with my family about the "real me."

I have been in therapy and counseling.

I talked openly about my issues.

I fell in love with an idiot.

I met lots of amazing people.

I lost many friends.

I have cried in public. A LOT.

I have been Edinburgh, Glasgow, Cardiff, Sheffield, Brighton, Oxford. 

I have a freaking degree lol. A freaking 2:1.

I got a job. I got several jobs.

I quit and told my boss where to stick himself.


I had my heart broken by that same idiot.

I freaking stand up in front of large groups and teach.

I have lived and changed so much in the past three years.


I am more confident. I am more open. I am more honest with myself. I am more social and take more risks.

But, I am still, very much a little girl in a grown-ups world.